Sunday, October 4, 2009

It's because I'm a masochist that I can say this.

"I'd rather the adventure of trouble through truth than the silent guilt of lies."
You'd at least think that, throughout the years, I'd have acquired some tact.

Nope. Just lost what little I had.

My Diplomacy only has points in it because, somehow, I have an outrageously high Charisma. I love Synchronizing my skills.

If that made any sense to you, know that I love you. <3

This post is Unoriginal. Lyrical.

I love music. I absolutely Adore music. I cannot get enough of it.

So, I'll just have to admit to myself right now that, sometimes, this blog won't be originally mine. That, every once in a blue moon I'll drop someone's lyrics in here.

Because they're pretty. Because the song is beautiful, because the message hit home, etc.

Whatever the reasons may be, I'll be dropping some lyrics here every now and again. And I'll just have to accept that.


Fiona Apple - 'A Mistake'

I'm gonna make a mistake
I'm gonna do it on purpose
I'm gonna waste my time
'Cause I'm full as a tick
And I'm scratching at the surface
And what I find is mine
And when the day is done, and I look back
And the fact is I had fun, fumbling around
All the advice I shunned, and I ran
Where they told me not to run, but I sure
Had fun, so
I'm gonna f*** it up again
I'm gonna do another detour
Unpave my path
And if you wanna make sense
Whatcha looking at me for
I'm no good at math
And when I find my way back,
The fact is I just may stay, or I may not
I've acquired quite a taste
For a wellmade mistake
I wanna mistake why can't I make a mistake?
I'm always doing what I think I should
Almost always doing everybody good
Why
Do I wanna do right, of course but
Do I really wanna feel I'm forced to
Answer you, hell no
I've acquired quite a taste
For a wellmade mistake, I wanna
Make a mistake, why can't I make a mistake
I'm always doing what I think I should
Almost always doing everybody good
Why

Writing Projects

So, I've told myself that I don't write enough anymore.

And that, quite frankly, I've only gotten worse rather than better.

So, in order to solve this problem I started a project with two of my friends.

It's a writing project, a little blog where we make characters and write short stories with them. We each make one character, all exchange characters, and write a short story.


Great Idea, great fun! Can't wait till it's rolling.

But, also, on the side, I've decided I will take random characters I've doodled or drawn before and write a short story for them. Or, at least, a background.

I have a LOT of random 'original' characters. So, I'll be dropping a few in here, all followed by a short story.

Flirtatious Vehicle Escapades

Have you ever flirted with a car?

And I don't mean as in, used the car to flirt. Or actually flirt with the car. Or even flirt within or around the car. I meant flirt while driving your car. Flirt with other cars. Not the drivers, just the cars.

Maybe it's part of my road rage. Maybe I'm a person with some sort of bizarre out look on life. But I love flirting with my car. It's adrenaline pumping. It's mysterious.

Some people race random strangers at stop lights for the victory. For the contest. Because we are all born and raised to want that winning spot at the top. Or, at least we're taught this at some point in life. Told it if even just with a bit of subtlety.

I race them for the car. For the feeling of speed and wanting to impress this other car, if the car is up to my standards. It needs to be a car I love, a car I admire, a car I want. Or else I'll be completely uninterested.

Of course it's been a year or two now since I've raced another car. Since I've 'flirted' with another car.

It's such a disconnection of feeling, of body. It isn't a human being. It's not really flirting, because it's a dangerous thing to do. A lot of people do it out of competition, which raises stress and sometimes can cause anger and frustration. But to me, it felt exhilarating. I loved it. I loved swerving through traffic after another car. Just because the car was beautiful and moving so smoothly and so swiftly through lines of traffic.

The other days, I was put in a position where it felt like me and the car before me were involved in a game of 'Chicken' my lane was closed off and I couldn't see oncoming traffic from over the hill. So I went for it, and as it happens, this other car come down.

It was a beautiful racer. Bright blue, the colour I want my Subaru Impreza wrx. And, although unintentionally, it gave me that adrenaline rush as I swerved out of the way to safety (and safely, of course). It was such an odd moment, such an odd realization, what I had just unwillingly felt and foregone. And how it's such an odd thing to think. I don't need to see a driver. Or think of one. The cars are always just cars. They don't have drivers. They're beautiful and fast and strong and they purr when they race through the streets. Speeds that cut through air.

I'm in love with speed that can cut air....

Friday, October 2, 2009

Red as the Devil's Dick

She was wearing her shades as the doors slid open slowly for her.
It was always almost kind of scary, walking into a closed door without having to push or pull. It still felt like something out of a science fiction movie to her. Even though she had grown up with these automatic doors all her life, the imagery in her head grew.

The glass doors turned the rest of the scene in her head. Twisted it up in a knot and took it to fantasy land. The girl is told she lives there a lot by a person she knows she can trust. Living in Fantasy Land is nice, she thinks as the knot unties in her head.

The once droll supermarket has become a dome, a dome within a dome, within a glass dome. The future, it starts eating up the scene like a slow painting. The trees are strategically placed, rather than aesthetically. That's because, in Fantasy Future Land -the one she thinks up right now- trees are Oxygen vents. Where oxygen sifts softly from small slits and holes placed around what looks to be a tree but is only a replica.

For comfort.... like how amputees sometimes get those prosthetic legs that look like real human legs. Why? We could make them different. We could bend them backwards. We could make them beautifully lavish with elaborate metal in-lays.

Her friend moves over to the desired drink. It's something green, pulpy, liquid and nectarine all at the same time, with chunks of what they say is 'aloe' thrown in. It looks like a Nes Ice Tea in fancy green. Like a Japanese version of Nes Ice Tea in a plastic bottle. But it's this Aloe Vera drink.

It says it's healthy for you. But then again, so do a lot of other things in here. The girl sniffs impolitely. Her nose is runny, her throat dry, her tongue following suit.

The drink is delicious, and it tastes of money. She can taste the five dollars she'd have to pay if they were to buy it.

But she knows that they won't. Those five dollars don't exist and they never need to. She watches her friend and follows, sunglasses still over her blood shot eyes as they stroll the super market.

It's back to being the regular, present time. It's boring, it's cold, full of odd smells that shift from sweet to meaty in a second flat. The supermarket isn't her favorite place. Especially because a lot of people roam it. She likes to go shopping at midnight. But that isn't an option. They aren't shopping, the two girls are browsing.

Now they're slowly making their way to the wine section. They love wine, the two girls. Wine, cheese, cured ham, and ridiculousness. The wine all looks wonderful. Red wines, lambruscos, Sangrias; all of it delicious. They've chosen a proper brand after discussing and comparing alcohol content of other brands.

The bottle, much like the last bottle, makes a show of itself. With a disapearing act. The bottle is out of sight. And, as the girls walk away, out of mind.

Behind shades and within any structure, colors are different. It's the wonderful part about wearing shades. The girl loves wearing shades after driving with her friend. She's free to watch people, to sneak peeks and make up little stories. Sometimes the two friends will whisper about strangers. Making up little stories about their life. Sometimes they giggle, most of the time they truly wonder about the husks of life surrounding them...

Mostly though, by now at least, they've reached the line. Sometimes it's long. Sometimes it's really long.

But, today, there is no line for them.

The Girl can see the portal coming closer. They're walking to the exit, to those magic doors that slide open and make The Girl wonder what else could we do to make things look futuristic?

But before going into Fantasy Land again, a bright colour catches her attention.

The Girl is a fool for bright colours. Rainbows especially. She removes her sunglasses, approaching the item and forgetting about their exit plan. She is now cooing over the item, an innocent admiration. It was cute and looked to be useful.

The Girl's friend approaches her, admiring it also for a second before reminding The Girl that they should be going.

The two friends exit the dull supermarket.

The lady next to the cute item, a worker at the market, watches as the two girls leave. Her expression of dissapointment edging on anger very apparent.

"Everything ok? Did those girls steal something?"

The lady sniffs at the question as she shakes her head.

"Naw, but that girl's eyes were as red as the devil's dick!"

The Molecular Syndrome of a Religion

It is....

It will be about reincarnation.

It is about molecules.

It is about the cycle of all things.

It is about the universal link of unity between all things animate and inanimate.

All things that share the same spark of life.

It is about molecules.


But it'll also be about religions.

About reincarnation.

About spirits.

It is about the knowledge of the ancients and not their ignorance. The knowledge of all living creatures, sentient or not.

That need to find a connection to us all.

If just one.

That is why it is about Molecules.

And why it is about Religion.

And about Reincarnation.