Sober thoughts

I'm sick and tired of being walked all over by people. I'm done. Finished with being used like a foot stool or a rug. I'm tired of feeling like an object and I'm SICK of holding it all in. Holding all my hate, all my rage, all my anger in.

I say, No longer. I've always prided myself with being a blunt person. Truthful to a fault. Well that's what I'm going to do. All this hate, all this rage MUST end. And I NEED to lash out.

And fuck that whole 'writing letters to people you have ill feelings towards and never sending them in.'

No.

FUCK THAT!

I will NOT be a fake. I will NOT keep it all in. If someone needs to know something, they will know it.

I'm irrational, a bit chaotic, I talk before I think and consequences bypass my logic as my mouth spews out poisonous sentences at people I'm angry at.

But it must be done. I will not censor myself. I will not walk around and shuffle around in silence like some dumb fuck zombie.

Why are people afraid to be heard. And why are people afraid to fucking hear the truth?!

This isn't about vengeance. This is about being true to myself and letting people know. This is about being fair to me. This is about cleansing my soul and letting others know that NO! It was NOT alright.

I don't care if they're deaf to it. I don't care if they try and ignore it. But I must open my mouth and scream.

I need a cleansing, and seeing how spirituality is something I lack, this is as best as it's gonna get.